WANTED...

" Never send sheep to kill a wolf... " - Mr. X

" What the fuck have you done lately? " - Wesley, Wanted

EXPERIENCING CHRISTMAS AT CTSI

This is my first year at CTSI and I'm really happy to have experience how they define Christmas here... It is a very wonderful experience celebrating Christmas with the team and with the whole corporate office! Thanks a lot guys! I do hope to celebrate Christmas with you again next year!!!

By the way, here are the gifts I received for Christmas at CTSI... Thank you all very much once again!!!!

Christmas Party Gifts...


Christmas Gifts...

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to All!!!

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!

HAPPY CHRISTMAS AND A PROSPEROUS NEW YEAR!!!!

Birthday n nmn after, yahoooo!!!!!

SPACE BETWEEN DOTS. . . .

There will come a time in your life where you will be faced to choose between the right thing and the one which you consider is right.... Be prepared, for sometimes when it seems that all things are doing fine, unexpected things happen.... Maybe not to ruin nor complicate your life but to make it worth your while...

ISANG TAONG PANGUNGULIT

Wala lang, masyado akong busy ngayon kaya hindi ako makapagupdate. Isang taon na din pala ang blog ko na ito..... hehehe! Sana humaba pa at dumami pa ang mga walang magawa na dumaan at magbasa.... Cge, bye! (Bc mode....)

KAIBIGAN

CTSI

----- CIT

--------- SYSDEV

Sa aking tatlong buwan at 6 na araw, pwera pa ang higit sa isang buwan na OJT, na pakikisama at pagttrabaho sa CTSI ako ay nakatagpo ng mga bagong kaibigan.... Tara ipakikilala ko sila sa inyo...

Si Tope ang Bagong Bangis

Hindi na sya bago, matagal ko na itong kasama. Siya ang bagong bangis, kasabay ko mag-OJT at ka-batch kong grumaduate. Small but terrible daw, YARI KA!!!! hahaha! Ayus to pagdating sa trabaho pero sabit lang talaga pagdating sa chicks, parang kabayo kasi may takip sa mata at iisa lang ang nakikita... hehehe!

Si AC ang Shopping Queen

Bakit kamo, siya kasi ang taga supply sa amin lalo na pag may meeting. Kapag gutom ka lapit ka lang sa kanya, sure may pagkain yan... Hehehe! Siya ang taskmate ni Lei, magaling yan bumirit! Sa sobrang galing kahit naalimpungatan basta alam ang tugtog bibirit yan! Hahaha!

Si Mike ang Politician/Businessman/Engineer/Dancer/etc.

Yan ang hari ng "tracking system" namin, mapa sa trabaho o sa chicks nakupo! Yung salamin nyan na-zzoom ng 500%! Hehehe! Sa tingin ko namali to ng linya kasi mukhang mas-in siya sa pagtitinda, threat siya actually kay manang at sa mga nagtitinda sa harap ng building namin. Hahaha! Hindi malabo magrent to ng isang space para lang sa tinitinda nya! Hehe! Peace Vice!

Si Rose ang Reyna ng Selda Katorse

Ewan ko pero tingin confused to sa pagkatao nya! Hahaha! Hindi, babae yan kita naman e! Hehe! Siya ang Software Tech Engineer sa amin, ayus yan all around sa opisina yan pati sa chicks yan ang pambala namin. Hehehe! Lagi nya iniisip ang mga buwitre! hahaha! Ala ako masabi, mataray to pero ok naman pag kasundo mo medyu confusing lang talaga kung minsan... Peace!

Si Drei ang Official Photographer

Siya ang pinsan ng kaibigang Paps ko, ayoko magcomment ng husto kasi baka mabanatan ako ni Paps. Hehehe! Siya ang reyna ng Sharepoint at ng portal namin, tahimik pero malupit. Hehehe! Magaling sa pakikipagkapwa tao! Ayus! Apir! Peace Drei!

Si Lei ang SQL Queen

Siya ang paborito ni Jer lalo sa asaran, ewan ko ba kung bakit. Hehehe! Siya din ang pinakamalupit para sa akin pagdating sa SQL at Database Management dito, kahit tulog at nananaginip kaya niya sagutin! Hehehe! Wag lang talaga pag kaharap ang picture o kahit anung may Arashi. Hehehe! Peace Lei! Siya ang amo ko nung OJT, kaya bati kami nyan kasi ang taas ng binigay na grade! Hehe!

Si Jer ang Kilabot at Alamat

Siya ang alamat ng Sysdev, mapa-babae o lalake malupit to! Walang patawad! hahaha! Siya ang amo ko ngayon sa Web. Kung si Lea ang sa DB si Jer ang sa .Net, ang lupit din nito! Hehe! Lalo pagdating sa chiks, panalo! Mabilis pa sa alas kwatro! Hahaha!

Si Ver ang Idol ko from Mars

Hahaha! Peace Ver! Siya ang pinaka sa amin na under ni boss. Kung si Lei sa DB at Jer sa .net, si Ver ang pinagsama-samang pwersa! Sa sobrang lupit nito, parang taga ibang planeta na pag technical ang pinaguusapan, hindi ko maintindihan e! Hehehe! Mahirap sukatin ang alam e, ultimo habang nasa cr ata nagpprogram sa utak e! Ang lupet! Hehe! Pati sa tugtugan, ala ko masabi! Bow ako sa kanya talaga! Nag-eenervon to e! IDOLLLLLLL!!!!!!

Si Efren ang Bonggang bonggang amo

Siya ang rason kung bakit kami ganito ka-bibo, siya ang Mayor namin. Kumbaga para siyang fly paper kapag nadikit ka parang ayaw mo na humiwalay. Papiliin ako, siya pa din gusto ko maging bonggang bonggang boss (Yun, baka magbigay recommendation for raise e. HAHAHAHAHA!). May mga kakilala nga ko gusto palipat sa amin para lang maging boss siya e.. Hehe. Tsismis un... Basta ala ko masabi dito, sana lang may balikan pa ako trabaho pag nabasa to. Bossing peace tayo ha! Malupit yan saludo talaga ko!

Sila ang mga kaibigan ko, kabarkada at mga katrabaho. Wala ko masabi, ang saya ng grupo namin at super bibo. Walang itatapon, lahat pasok! Kaya kahit may gusto agad pumirata sa akin, ayoko kasi mas gusto ko dito. Enjoy! Kumbaga sa pelikula, star-studded! Kumpleto, parang hindi pwede mawala kahit isa, buo kahit may problema! Sa totoo lang marami pa kaming myembro pero etong mga to kasi ang ka-team ko talaga sa opisina, wala talaga ko masabi, teka petiks na ko ha cge balik muna sa trabaho. Salamat sa inyo! Amen!

CONQUERED....

Saturday, October 4th, 2008, 1:40pm.....Mount Arayat, Pampanga......

It all began last October 3rd, we came all the way from Manila and arrived at Magalang, Pampanga at around 11:00pm. Exhausted as we were, yet we still prepared our breakfast and lunch for the next day and manage to down 2 bottles of "Mang Jose" Cuervo tequilas. I hardly slept at around 3:30 am and woke up 5:30 in the morning (WTF!).

Then D-day comes...

We ate breakfast and then prepared for the trek. Arrived at the base of the mountain at around 7:50am and started the ordeal by 8:00am.

All hell breaks loose!

Around 11:30 (i think) was the time when all hell breaks loose! We have hired 2 guides and assigned them, one at the front and one at the back and then the front guide disappeared. Well he did not disappear in an instant but he disappeared trying to clear our trail from grasses and other unwanted objects. That's not it, we summoned the back guide to go to the front just for us to continue the hike, but to our mistake, the guide didn't know where to go! WTF! WE WERE LOST AT THE MIDDLE OF THE WOODS!!! F*CK!
We've decided to go back to the camp using our own sense of direction(WTF is that). After 1.5 hrs of waiting and searching, the front guide re-appeared and as if nothing happened he summoned us again back to climb uphill because he said that the peak is near. So, there we are, 1:00pm, with only a bottle of water left for 20 thirsty and hungry stomachs, and with very exhausted bodies, we went back to the trail.

And then there's glory...

1:40pm we've reached the 1st of the 2 peaks, and God, it was a relief! Well not for the fact that we've reached the top but beacuse we can finally eat! HEHE! After eating, My friend and I decided to take a look from the peak, climbing the overhanging large rock! God, it was MAGNIFICENT! My exhaustion disappeared... Well, not really, but the sight is very very beautiful!

Descent...

We've decided to trek down at around 2:30pm and we headed back to the "refilling station" and passed by a "batis", so we decided to cool our bodies down a bit. we arrived at the base at around 5:30 in the afternoon.

Well, a very very tiring experience yet a once in a lifetime trip to the nether world! hahaha!!!

I've provided some of the pics below...

Mahaba-habang inuman....

Mang Jose, ILABAS ANG PULUTAN!!!!!

Darning time...

and again.....

Class picture, SYSDEV TROPA '08

Bago magsimula...MASIGLA

Unang pamamahinga...NORMAL PA!

Senyales ng pagkapagod.... 50 porsyento!

Ang batong nakausli...White rock peak 1

View sa ilalim...

View from the peak...

And another one

Ang dalawang salarin


picture muna syempre...

Eto ang hindi na normal! Exhausted...Nautang na lakas for the next day!

Goodbye 4k And1 shoes....huhu

In Memoriam...

Hindi yan constipated. pagod lang... 150 porsyento! sign off....

ILANG SIPING NAKUHA KO MULA KAY PARENG BOB

“Pare, isa kang totoong tao at walang halong kasinungalingan.In English, FACT you, pare. Totoo ka. In English, FACT you!”

“Hindi lahat ng kaya mong intindihin ay katotohan, at hindi lahat ng hindi mo kayang intindihin ay kasinungalingan”

” Kung nagmahal ka ng taong di dapat at nasaktan ka, wag mong sisihin ang puso mo. Tumitibok lng yan para mag-supply ng dugo sa katawan mo. Ngayon, kung magaling ka sa anatomy at ang sisisihin mo naman ay ang hypothalamus mo na kumokontrol ng emotions mo, mali ka pa rin! Bakit? Utang na loob! Wag mong isisi sa body organs mo ang mga sama ng loob mo sa buhay! Tandaan mo: Magiging masaya ka lang kung matututo kang tanggapin na hindi ang puso, utak, atay o bituka mo ang may kasalanan sa lahat ng nangyari sayo, kundi IKAW mismo! “

” Mangarap ka at abutin mo. Wag mong sisihin ang sira mong pamilya, palpak mong syota, pilay mong tuta, o mga lumilipad na ipis. Kung may pagkukulang sa’yo mga magulang mo, pwde kang manisi at maging rebelde. Tumigil ka sa pag-aaral, mag-asawa ka, mag-drugs ka, magpakulay ka ng buhok sa kili-kili. Sa banding huli, ikaw din ang biktima. Rebeldeng walang napatunayan at bait sa sarili. “

” Tuparin ang mga pangarap. Obligasyon mo yan sa sarili mo. Kung gusto mo mang kumain ng balde-baldeng lupa para malagay ka sa Guinness Book of World Records at maipagmalaki ng bansa natin, sige lang. Nosi balasi. Wag mong pansinin ang sasabihin ng mga taong susubok humarang sa’yo. Kung hindi nagsumikap ang mga scientist noon, hindi pa rin tayo dapat nakatira sa jupiter ngayon. Pero hindi pa rin naman talaga tayo nakatira sa jupiter dahil nga hindi nagsumikap ang mga scientist noon. Kita mo yung moral lesson? “

“Masama akong tao, tulad mo, sa parehong paraan na mabuti kang tao, tulad ko.”
“Hindi lungkot o takot ang mahirap sa pag-iisa kundi ang pagtanggap na sa bilyon-bilyong tao sa mundo, wala man lang nakipaglaban upang makasama ka.”

PETIKS...

“Iba ang walang ginagawa sa gumagawa ng wala at mas mabuting mabigo sa paggawa ng isang bagay kesa magtagumpay sa paggawa ng wala”

-BOB ONG

NAKAKATUWA...

Sa wakas graduate na talaga ko... salamat sa lahat!!!

ASAR...

Hindi ko maintindihan ang trend ngayon sa music industry natin. dati puro revival lang, tpos papakanta sa iba then lalagyan ng title na "music of my life since i am born chuva" then album na! nakakabuwiset! pero ang pinakamalupet yung "ibang dialect version" ng mga ingles na kanta naman ang nauso! Namputsa, pasintabi na lang pero yan ang hindi ko talaga masakyan, pumapangit tuloy yung production natin ng magaganda't bagong kanta! Busett!!! Nga pala pakiantay yung kapampangan version ko ng crank dat ha! LOL!!! Busett talaga!

NAPSTER AT BLOGGING PINOY

I have just joined BloggingPinoy and it really excites me. It's a cool blog and it features stories about Filipinos and anything that involves our own country... BloggingPinoy is a multi-authored blog that provides a view on being a Filipino and the Philippines in general. Pls do visit the site. Thanks!!!

PASASALAMAT...

Lahat ng istorya ay may katapusan... ang mahalaga ay marunong kang magpasalamat sa nagdaan at humarap sa kasalukuyan... pahalagahan mo ang bawat sandali... harapin mo ang bawat karanasan ng may pagpapahalaga... gawin mong gabay ang mga aral at ala-ala ng nakaraan... tapusin mo ang huling istorya na puno ng pag-asa... simulan mo ang bagong kabanata ng may pagmamalaki...

maraming salamat sa lahat...

hanggang sa muli....

ETO NA...

eto na talaga... nararamdaman ko na... ang pinag-aralan ko ng lampas 15 taon ay magagamit ko na... totoo na ito, wala ng biro... haaayyy... nakaka-miss ang lahat ng nakasama ko at karanasan sa eskwela...

hanggang dito na lang talaga siguro, ang pagkakakulong ko sa kahon, sa apat na sulok ng kwarto... tapos na nga talaga... pero mayroon na ding nag-uumpisa...

mas mahalaga, mas mahirap at walang guro na magbibigay ng grado at leksiyon... ako na ang guro ng sarili ko, ako na ang gagawa nang leksiyon na pag-aaralan ko...

wala ng atrasan.... may mga bagay na nagtatapos at meron ding nagbubukas... salamat sa lahat, salamat sa kahong 15 mahigit na taon ko ring naging tahanan, salamat sa mga guro kong nagturo sa akin ng kung anong nalalaman ko, salamat sa mga karanasan na nagturo sa akin na maging matibay, salamat sa mga kakilala, kaibigan, kabarkada sa mga alaalang binuo natin sa mga panahong iyon... salamat pero kailangan ko ng magpatuloy, taas noo at mas handa sa totoong pagsusulit at hamon... salamat sa lahat...

mag-uumpisa na ang bagong istorya, ang bagong pag-aaral at bagong karanasan... sisimulan ko iyon baon ang lahat ng binigay sa akin ng higit 15 taon ng pagkakakulong sa kahon... eto na ako... sa wakas graduate na ako!

ON THE JOB TRAINING

Maraming salamat sa pagtanggap at sa mga natutunan ko dito... Everyone and everything is wonderful... I do hope na makatulong aq sa company kapag naging employee na ako... To bossing Efren, idol Sylvere, Lei Lei, Mike, AC, Rosas, Lady Drei, Jer, Cindy and Edsel at sa buong CIT at sa CTSI salamat ng marami and i'm looking forward to working with you guys! Be well!

here are some of my pics...

kape?

naiinip na...

with rose

with tope

web developer(naks!)

reporting services...

TRY THIS TOO...

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WALANG PAMAGAT

minsan mas magandang umarteng bobo at walang alam para makaiwas at balewalain ang katotohanan...

pero hindi rin....

bandang huli kailangan mo pa ring harapin kung ano ang totoong nangyayari o nangyari...

kaya mas maganda pa manahimik na lang at hayaang mga tuldok na lamang ang magsabi ng nararamdaman...

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salamat kaibigan.....

ISTORYA NG PU-TA!!!

i'm browsing our crib when i stumbled upon our admin's post and damn it was a post about my idol Bob Ong's i think latest literary work... And as always, Bob Ong rocks!!!! I agree with our admin that he must be commended for the article... It depicts the truth about everything even though reality hurts... You're the best man!!!! and if you come to visit my blog, well just want you to know bro....I'm your number 1 fan!!!!!! Kudos to BOB ONG!!!!

Tingin ng mga bobong kapitbahay ko pu-ta daw ako. Nagpapagamit, binabayaran. Sabi nila ako daw ang pinakamaganda at pinakasikat sa aming lugar noon. Ang bango-bango ko daw, sariwa at makinis. Di ko nga alam kung sumpa ito, dahil dito naletse ang kinabukasan ko.

Tara makinig ka muna sa kwento ko, yosi muna tayo.

Alam mo, maraming lumapit sa akin, nagkagusto, naakit. Ang hirap pag lahat sa iyo virgin eh. Tinanggap ko naman silang tao, bakit kaya nila ako ginago? Masakit alalahanin, iniisip ko na lang na kase di sila taga rito, siguro talagang ganoon. Tatlong malilibog na foreigners ang namyesta sa katawan ko, na-rape daw ako. Sa tatlong beses akong nagahasa, ang pinakahuli ang di ko makakalimutan. Parang maski di ko ginusto ang mga nangyari, hinahanap-hanap ko siya. Tinulungan nya kasi akong makalimutan yung mga sadistang Hapon. Kase, ibang-iba ang hagod
niya. Umiikot ang mundo ko sa tuwing ginagamit niya ako. Ibang klase siya mag-sorry, lalo pa at kinupkop niya ako at ang mga naging anak ko. Parating ang dami naming regalo - may chocolates, yosi, ano ka! May datung pa! Nakakabaliw siya, alam kong ginagamit nya
lang ako pero pagamit naman ako nang pagamit. Sa kanya namin natutunan mag-inggles, di lang magsulat ha! Magbasa pa! Hanggang ngayon, sa tuwing mabigat ang problema ko, siya ang tinatakbuhan ko. 'Yun nga lang, lahat ng bagay may kapalit. Nung kinasama ko siya, guminhawa
buhay namin. Sosyal na sosyal kami. Ewan ko nga ba, akala ko napapamahal na ako sa kanya. Akala ko tuloy-tuloy na kaligayahan namin, yun pala unti-unti niya akong pinapatay. P*** ng I**! Sa dami ng lason na sinaksak niya sa katawan ko, muntik na akong malaspag. Ang daming
nagsabi na ang tanga tanga ko. Patalsikin ko na daw. Sa tulong ng mga anak ko, napalayas ko ang animal pero ang hirap magsimula. Masyado na kaming nasanay sa sarap ng buhay na naranasan namin sa kanya. Lubog na lubog pa kami sa utang, kulang ata pati kaluluwa namin para ibayad sa mga inutang namin. Sinikap naming lahat maging maganda ang buhay namin. Ayun, mga nasa Japan, Hong Kong, Saudi ang mga anak ko. Yung iba nag-US, Europe. 'Yung iba ayaw umalis sa akin. Halos lahat, wala naman silbi, masaya daw sa piling ko, maski amoy usok ako.

Sa dami ng mga anak ko na nagsisikap na tulungan ang kalagayan namin, siya din ang dami ng mga anak ko na namamantala sa kabuhayan at kayaman na itinatabi ko para sa punyetang kinabukasan naming lahat. Dumating ang panahon na di na kami halos makaahon sa hirap ng buhay. Napakahirap dahil nasanay na kami sa ginhawa at sarap. Ang di ko inaakala ay
mismong mga anak ko, ang tuluyang sisira sa akin. Napakasakit tanggapin na malinlang. Akala ko ay makakakita ako ng magiging kasama sa buhay sa mga ahas na ipinakilala ng mga anak ko. Hindi pala. Ang tanga ko talaga. Binugaw ako ng sarili kong mga anak kapalit ng kwarta
at pansamantalang ginhawa na nais nilang matamasa. Wala na akong nagawa dahil sa sobrang pagmamahal ko sa aking mga anak. Wala akong ibang yaman kundi ganda ko. Pinagamit ko na lang ng pinagamit ang sarili ko, basta maginhawa lang ang mga anak ko. Usap-usapan ako ng mga kapitbahay ko. May nanghihinayang, namumuhi at naaawa. **** na kase ang isang magandang tulad ko.

Alam mo, gusto ko na sanang tumigil sa pagpu**** kaso ang laki talaga ng letseng utang ko eh. Palaki pa ng palaki. Kulang na kulang. Paano na lang ang mga anak ko naiwan sa aking punyetang puder? Baka di na ako balikan o bisitahin ng mga nag-abroad kong mga anak. Hindi na importante kung laspagin man ang ganda ko, madama ko lang ang pagmamahal ng mga anak ko. Malaman nila na gagawin ko ang lahat para sa kanila. Sa tuwing titingin ako sa salamin, alam ko maganda pa rin ako. Meron pa din ang bilib sa akin. Napapag usapan pa din. Sa tuwing nakikita ko ang mukha ko sa salamin, nakikita ko ang mga anak ko. Tutulo na lang ang mga luha ko ng di ko namamalayan. Ang gagaling nga ng mga anak ko, namamayagpag kahit saan sila pumunta. Mahusay sa kahit anong gawin. Tama man o mali. Proud ako sa kanila. Kaso sila, kabaligtaran ang nararamdaman para sa akin. Sa dami ng mga anak ko, iilan lang ang may malasakit sa akin. May malasakit man, nahihilaw. Ni di nga ako kinikilalang ina. Halos lahat sila galit sa isa't isa. Walang gusto magtulungan, naghihilahan pa. Ang dami ko ng pasakit na tiniis pero walang sasakit pa nung sarili kong mga anak ang nagbugaw sa akin. Kinapital ang laspag na ganda ko. Masyado silang nasanay sa sarap ng buhay. Minsan sa pagtingin ko sa salamin, ni hindi ko na nga kilala sarili ko.

Dadating na naman ang pasko, sana maalala naman ako ng mga anak ko. Isang buwan pa, magbabagong taon na. Natatakot ako sa taong darating. Ngayon pa lang usap usapan na ang susunod na pagbubugaw ng ilan sa mga anak ko. Sana may magtanggol naman sa akin, ipaglaban naman nila ako. Gusto kong isigaw:

"INA NINYO AKO! MAHALIN NYO NAMAN AKO!"

Sige, dumadrama na ako. Masisira na ang make up ko nito eh. Salamat ha, pinakinggan mo ako.

Ay sorry, di ko nasabi pangalan ko.

Pilipinas nga pala


nakakalungkot isipin na totoo ang bawat sinasaad ng artikulong ito... pero kagaya ninyo, hindi pa rin aq nawawalan ng pag-asa para s bayan natin... iniisip ko pa rin na babangon tayo at kakayanin natin lahat ng problema n yan... ang nakakatakot lang e baka sa sobrang tagal ng pagbangon e maubusan na tayo ng oras para gawin pa yun... haaaayyyy....

LABOR DAY....

labor day ngayon...ano ang kaugnayan?

wala!

wala kasi akong maisip na title para sa comeback post ko, nagkataong labor day ngayon kaya ayun na lang...pasensiya na...

3 buwan na pala halos mula nung huli akong nagpost...ang bilis ng panahon ano...parang nakakabigla sa bilis...madaming nangyari sa akin sa konting panahon na lumipas...

nakapagtapos na ang mga kaklase ko at ako ay ojt na lang ang kulang tapos ay susunod na din sa kanila..ang galing ano, tapos ngayon sasama na din ako sa mga kababayan nating nakikipagsapalaran para lamang may maipantustos sa pangangailangan nila at ng kanilang pamilya at siyempre para pambili ng bagong cellphone...ang hirap ng buhay ngayon, maghapong trabaho kapalit ng ipambabayad mo lang sa jeep at bus pati pambili ng bigas, tapos 15 araw n namang tatanga.

ganun lang siguro talaga...14 o higit pang taon kang ihahanda para sa tunay na gera ng buhay...

tapos na ang palabas, ewan kung ano ang sumapi sa akin... ayun lang sinasabi ko lang na nakabalik na ako....magandang araw kaibigan...

FULFILLMENT...

sa wakas!!!! after mging pressured sa lahat ng bagay, after ilang gabing walang tulog, after ilang transistors n nasira at boteng naubos(nyahaha)!!!nktpos din ng defense! and yes we made it!!! we did make a difference!!! salamat sa lahat ng tumulong at naniwala!!! s groupmates ko salamat din sa pagtitiwala at sa hindi pgkawala ng pag-asa, sa pagtulong at pagpupuyat!!! s Diyos para sa paggabay!!! ayos!!! GO ROW4!!!

BLOWN TO PIECES...

we only have a week to finish our group's design for our thesis and we're not even close to building 50% of the whole thing!

damn....
pressured by time... by other projects and subjects.... by the consequences of not being able to deliver and finish the device... by being the group leader... by the thought of failing....

we can do this.... we can and we will make a difference... i'm confident enough that we can finish it just in time for the defense... i will not fail.... i can do it... i must.... and i will....

damn.... my mind's going to blow....

BETTER BE LEFT UNTITLED...

Sometimes we tend to expect great things, sometimes we tend to see what we only want to see... it is also in these times that we tend to ignore small but greater things... these are the times that instead of being happy with what we have and enjoying our lives..... we stop living...

Never ever expect much, for things are greater when they come unexpectedly... live not by expectations and doubts but by hope and faith... be well....

THE PURSUIT OF HAPPYNESS

Don’t ever let anyone say you can’t do something, their just trying to discourage you from something that they could not do.

You got a dream... You gotta protect it. People can't do somethin' themselves, they wanna tell you you can't do it. If you want somethin', go get it. Period.

-Christopher Gardner

PERSONALITY TEST

i have seen astrid's blog and also tried to take this test...kudos to astrid!


My Personality

Neuroticism	35
Extraversion	92
Openness to Experience	76
Agreeableness	49
Conscientiousness	75

You do not feel nervous in social situations, and have a good impression of what others think of you, however you experience panic, confusion, and helplessness when under pressure or stress. You experience a range of positive feelings, including happiness, enthusiasm, optimism, and joy. You like the security of tradition, but sometimes have a desire to bend the rules and challenge conventional thinking. You see no need for pretense or manipulation when dealing with others and are therefore candid, frank and sincere. People find it relatively easy to relate to you, however you are not adverse to confrontation and will sometimes even intimidate others to get your own way. You strive hard to achieve excellence. Your drive to be recognized as successful keeps you on track toward your lofty goals. You often have a strong sense of direction in life, but may sometimes be too single-minded and obsessed with your work.

Take a Personality Test now .

WITHOUT YOU

VERSE 1
It feels like a lifetime,
A thousand days have passed by
Since I held you close to me
If I could see that smile from my friend
I know that I could live again
I need you here with me

CHORUS
Heaven knows what to say
Even though for right now
you’re so far away
I hope and I pray
Somewhere in your heart I’ll always stay
Girl, lately
my sun doesn’t shine without you
Never noticed
what it feels like to be without you
Feels like I took my last step
And my last breath and my life ended
Had to say just what I was feeling, girl
‘Cause my sun doesn’t shine,
Sun doesn’t shine without you

VERSE 2
This is more for me than for you
Girl, I finally see there’s no substitute
For what we have
Do you know how much I love you?
And what we’ve shared
I can’t forget
Girl, a love like yours
I’ll never let just slip away
Just promise me that you’ll stay

CHORUS
Heaven knows what to say
Even though for right now you’re so far away
Gonna tell you and show you
Do whatever I can do to get back to you
Girl, lately
my sun doesn’t shine without you
Never noticed
what it feels like to be without you
Feels like I took my last step
And my last breath in my life ending
Had to say just what I was feeling, girl
‘Cause my sun doesn’t shine,
Sun doesn’t shine...

BRIDGE
Have you ever seen a flower that never blooms
See a starless night without the moon
Well that’s me without you
So come back and turn my night into day...
...cause lately,
my sun doesn’t shine without you...

‘Cause my sun doesn’t shine,
Sun doesn’t shine without
you

awww....both performed by paolo santos and charlie wilson...i definitely love this song....

KNOW MORE ABOUT YOUR NAME....

There are 21 letters in your name.
Those 21 letters total to 91
There are 7 vowels and 14 consonants in your name.

What your first name means:

Latin	Male	From Christianus meaning Christian. Famous bearer: Christian was the hero of John Bunyan's 'The Pilgrim's Progress'.
Latin	Female	From 'Christianus' meaning Christian. Variant of Christiana, meaning Follower of Christ.
Irish	Female	Servant of Christ.
Greek	Male	Christian.
Greek	Female	Christian. Follower of Christ.
English	Male	Follower of Christ.
English	Female	Variant of Christiana. Follower of Christ.
Danish	Male	Believes in Christ.

Your number is: 1

The characteristics of #1 are: Initiating action, pioneering, leading, independent, attaining, individual.

The expression or destiny for #1:
A number 1 Expression denotes the skilled executive with keen administrative capabilities. You must develop the capacity to be a fine leader, sales executive, or promoter. You have the tools to become an original person with a creative approach to problem solving, and a penchant for initiating action. Someone may have to follow behind you to handle the details, but you know how to get things going and make things happen. You have a good mind and the ability to use it for your advancement. Because of these factors, you have much potential for achievement and financial rewards. Frequently, this expression belongs to one running a business or striving to achieve a level of accomplishment on ones talents and efforts. You have little need for much supervision, preferring to act on your own with little restraint. You are both ambitious and determined. Self-confident and self-reliant must be yours, as you develop a strong unyielding will and the courage of your convictions.

Although you fear loneliness, you want to be left alone. You fear routine and being in a rut. You often jump the gun because you are afraid of being left behind.

The negative attributes of the 1 Expression are egotism and a self-centered approach to life. This is an aggressive number and if it is over-emphasized it is very hard to live with. You do not have to be overly aggressive to fulfill your destiny. The 1 has a natural instinct to dominate and to be the boss; adhering to the concept of being number One. Again, you do not have to dominate and destroy in order to lead and manage.

Your Soul Urge number is: 6

A Soul Urge number of 6 means:
With a number 6 Soul Urge, you would like to be appreciated for your ability to handle responsibility. Your home and family are likely to be a strong focus for you, perhaps the strongest focus of your life. Friendship, love, and affection are high on your list of priorities for a happy life. You have a lot of diplomatic tendencies in your makeup, as you a able to rectify and balance situations with an innate skill. You like working with people rather than by yourself. It is extremely important for you to have harmony in your environment at all times.

The positive side of the 6 Soul Urge produces a huge capacity for responsibility; you are always there and ready to assume more than your share of the load. If you possess positive 6 Soul Urges and express them, you are known for your generosity, understanding and deep sympathetic attitude. Strong 6 energy is very giving of love, affection, and emotional support. You may have the inclination to teach or serve your community in other idealistic ways. You have natural abilities to help people. You are also likely to have artistic and creative leanings.

If you have an over-supply of 6 energy in your makeup, you may express some of the negative traits common to this number. With such a strong sympathetic attitude, it is easy to become too emotional. Sometimes the desires to render help can be over done, and it can become interfering and an attitude that is too protective, rather than helpful. The person with too much 6 energy often finds that people tend to take advantage of this very giving spirit. You may tend to repress your own needs so that you can cater to the demands from others. At times, there may be a tendency in this, for becoming over-loaded with such demands, and as a result become resentful.

Your Inner Dream number is: 4

An Inner Dream number of 4 means:
You dream of being a very solid citizen that people can depend upon. You strive for organization and predictable order. You want to be recognized as a person with a plan and the discipline to make that plan work like clockwork.

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KNOW MORE ABOUT YOUR BIRTHDAY....

Your date of conception was on or about 4 April 1983 which was a Monday.

You were born on a Monday
under the astrological sign Capricorn.
Your Life path number is 5.

Your fortune cookie reads:
Be direct, usually one can accomplish more that way.

Life Path Compatibility:
You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 5 & 7.
You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 3 & 9.
You may or may not get along well with those with the Life Path number 8.
You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 4, 6, 11 & 22.

The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2445694.5.
The golden number for 1983 is 8.
The epact number for 1983 is 16.
The year 1983 was not a leap year.

Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 2/13/1983 and ending 2/1/1984.
You were born in the Chinese year of the Pig.

Your Native American Zodiac sign is Goose; your plant is Bramble.

You were born in the Egyptian month of Famenoth, the third month of the season of Poret (Emergence - Fertile soil).

Your date of birth on the Hebrew calendar is 20 Tevet 5744.
Or if you were born after sundown then the date is 21 Tevet 5744.

The Mayan Calendar long count date of your birthday is 12.18.10.10.10 which is
12 baktun 18 katun 10 tun 10 uinal 10 kin

The Hijra (Islamic Calendar) date of your birth is Monday, 21 Rabi'u'l-Avval 1404 (1404-3-21).

The date of Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 3 April 1983.
The date of Orthodox Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 8 May 1983.
The date of Ash Wednesday (the first day of Lent) on your birth year was Wednesday 16 February 1983.
The date of Whitsun (Pentecost Sunday) in the year of your birth was Sunday 22 May 1983.
The date of Whisuntide in the year of your birth was Sunday 29 May 1983.
The date of Rosh Hashanah in the year of your birth was Thursday, 8 September 1983.
The date of Passover in the year of your birth was Tuesday, 29 March 1983.
The date of Mardi Gras on your birth year was Tuesday 15 February 1983.

As of 1/29/2008 4:04:27 AM EST
You are 24 years old.
You are 289 months old.
You are 1,257 weeks old.
You are 8,800 days old.
You are 211,204 hours old.
You are 12,672,244 minutes old.
You are 760,334,667 seconds old.

Celebrities who share your birthday:

Lars Ulrich (1963)
John Walsh (1945)
Steve Allen (1921)
Henry Miller (1891)
Ozzie Smith (1954)
Phil Spector (1940)
Richard Widmark (1914)
Charles Babbage (1791)
Carlton Fisk (1947)
Alan King (1927)
Mao Tse-tung (1893)

Top songs of 1983

Every Breath You Take by Police
Flashdance by Irene Cara
All Night Long by Lionel Richie
Down Under by Men at Work
Islands In the Stream by Kenny Rogers & Dolly Parton
Billie Jean by Michael Jackson
Say Say Say by Paul McCartney & Michael Jackson
Total Eclipse of the Heart by Bonnie Tyler
Beat It by Michael Jackson
Baby, Come to Me by Patti Austin & James Ingram

Your age is the equivalent of a dog that is 3.44422700587084 years old. (Life's just a big chewy bone for you!)

Your lucky day is Saturday.
Your lucky number is 8.
Your ruling planet(s) is Saturn & Uranus.
Your lucky dates are 8th, 17th, 26th.
Your opposition sign is Cancer.
Your opposition number(s) is 2 & 7.

Today is not one of your lucky days!

There are 332 days till your next birthday
on which your cake will have 25 candles.

Those 25 candles produce 25 BTUs,
or 6,300 calories of heat (that's only 6.3000 food Calories!) .
You can boil 2.86 US ounces of water with that many candles.

In 1983 there were approximately 3.6 million births in the US.
In 1983 the US population was approximately 226,545,805 people, 64.0 persons per square mile.
In 1983 in the US there were 2,444,000 marriages (10.5%) and 1,179,000 divorces (5%)
In 1983 in the US there were approximately 1,990,000 deaths (8.8 per 1000)
In the US a new person is born approximately every 8 seconds.
In the US one person dies approximately every 12 seconds.

In 1983 the population of Australia was approximately 15,483,496.
In 1983 there were approximately 242,570 births in Australia.
In 1983 in Australia there were approximately 114,860 marriages and 43,525 divorces.
In 1983 in Australia there were approximately 110,084 deaths.


Your birthstone is Blue Zircon

The Mystical properties of Blue Zircon

Zircon helps one be more at peace with oneself.

Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)

Blue Topaz, Ruby, Lapis Lazuli

Your birth tree is

Apple Tree, the Love

Of slight build, lots of charm, appeal and attraction, pleasant aura, flirtatious, adventurous, sensitive, always in love, wants to love and be loved, faithful and tender partner, very generous, scientific talents, lives for today, a carefree philosopher with imagination.

There are 331 days till Christmas 2008!
There are 344 days till Orthodox Christmas!

The moon's phase on the day you were
born was waning gibbous.

find out what's yours @ http://www.paulsadowski.org/BirthData.asp

UNTITLED

"Sometimes things happen that are just out of your control...."

-Michael Scofield(Prison Break Season 2)

damn true......

F*CKED UP....

i do not believe in doing good just to be appreciated and please others...
it is never right to expect that you can please everyone...
and i do not think that explaining yourself to everyone because they think and say that you are what you are not is the right thing to do....

PEOPLE ALWAYS BELIEVE WHAT THEY WANTED TO BELIEVE...

no matter how hard you try to please everyone,
no matter how hard you try to look and do good just for others to accept and appreciate you,
there will always be someone who will criticize you and will do their best just to bring you down.....

SO BE YOURSELF AND DO WHAT YOU WANT TO DO...

you are not here for them, do your thing and never explain yourself, as long as you know that what they say about you is not true, then you are doing the right thing...as for me, all i can say is....

DO YOUR WORST!!!!!

SHOCKBOY

Now that astrid reminded me of shockboy, i want to share his picture with everyone. Just so you know, Shockboy is neostream's creation....ASTIG!